you're a nice girl but...
no, fuck you, fuck all of you. No but. I deserve more than this.
yeah that’s how we felt about it too…
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November’s Unanswered Questions - Sinaloa
So tell me how these people could do this (she said), explain to me what you can’t simply explain to yourself?
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We’re Not In This Together - Punch
Maybe if I stay busy…Maybe if I smile when I don’t want to…Maybe if I turn the volume up louder…Maybe if I get out of the house…Maybe if I write about it…Maybe if I sleep…Maybe if I go for a run…Maybe if I take a hot shower…Maybe if I call my mom…Maybe if I make a tasty dinner…Maybe if I cuddle the dog…Maybe if I go for a long drive…Maybe if I watch a movie…Maybe if I play music…Maybe if I spend more time with friends…Maybe if I pretend it’s not there…Maybe, Maybe, Maybe.
“If there is nothing, then, but silence, is it not presumptuous of me to speak? And yet: if there had been anything more than silence, would I have felt the need to speak in the first place? My choices are limited.”- Paul Auster, The Invention of Solitude
at the end of the day, if you can still smile … things will be just fine.
I stand by the fact that honesty is the best policy, even when it’s hard. I feel ok about this. Life is alright. It’s not perfect. But it’s not unbearable either. There are worse things than feeling uncertain. There are worse things than being friends. There are worse things than unknowns…
dreaming of a place across the sea and bare bulbs.
